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May 25 to a special someone.... this blog is specially dedicated to a very special fren of mine...of whom i baru know that he's a super fan of my blog...hahahahah he is a very super close fren of mine, of whom I can confide in....of whom who has always been there eventhough i am not always there for him...heheheheh anyway, yesterday we had a party at fuel, autocity...it's his bday....not yesterday, his was on wednesday.....it's kinda a gathering for all, and I'm glad i'm invited.... and I got to know tad he read all my blogs....hahha...paiseh............. so, here it is.... Happy Belated Birthday, Petrus.... may you are always blessed and happiness all around you..... thanks for being such a close bestie... God Bless.... May 10 STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!right now i am really pissed off...i duno for what and why i am still putting hope on you!!! what's should been put to stop i should put it to stop RIGHT now! i duno why i am still such stupid....to put hopes on you...SHIT! i am clear now...from now on, no matter how much i misses you, i will put it to rest.... no matter how hard it is to let you go, i will...and this time, i am NO joking.... i am really going to not miss you and not to have you in my mind and heart anymore! what's done is done, and what's gone is gone! the accuracy of horoscope reading..... it's saturday, and my tooth and gum is still in pain....hardly eat...  usually in these time, well, in sickness, i'll crave for pampering... crave to manja wiz ppl...i do still, but somehow, i find no one.... and unfortunately, that someone that i wan him to cuddle and pamper me do not do so...so, it's such dissapointing that he doesn't know what i wanted and obviously he is not... perhaps, i should really forget him and kinda move on...i remember i came back from work on thursday, and read on the newspaper like i always did. browsing through to the horoscope section, i read what's mine have for me that day... it read - "there will be a discussion over something you should have brought to an end, but didn't" it got me right into my heart! i'm like OMG...how can it be such coincidence?? makes me believes more in this horoscope thingy.... the scenario's here... i was in fact in a discussion wiz a fren of mine at my work place over a guy who is currently resides in my heart.... am still in the doubtful area on should i continue letting him residing in my heart or should i not? this question has been lingering in my mind for quite some time, and been making decisions over decisions over decisions...but still i can't make up my mind... i wanted to be with him, but...y is there always should be a but...? haih....complicated.... "something i should have brought to an end, but didn't"....should i really put it into an end? should i? letting you go or to stay on, hang on, even though there is nothing felt from you???? am in a dilemma....frens are advising me to let go...i wanted to trust you...i wanted to really trust you and continue in being your close fren....but what if you finally found someone else, and left me behind? i could be more hurt than ever....do you ever think of tat? hmmm...i doubt so.... give me some more time, and i will be able to sort this knot out...whether to give in or let go, i will decide for the best.... til then, i am still a simple girl who needs pampering a lot.... May 08 love for sale~~~ yor....having a tooth and gum pain today whole day ler......makan pun susah, minum pun susah...... talk pun susah....adoi....i can't imagine kissing....ahahahhahahahaha tonite so gonna sleep early and put ubat banyak banyak....aiyoh...hopefully it will get better when tomorrow wakes up la..... i am having a very doubtful mind....dunno whether should or should i not give you the benefit of the doubt.... to trust my instinct or to face reality???? i really in the lost lah.... hmmm..with nobody to lead the way, i guess i have to lead my own way.... making my own decision, and determining my own future..... i am still not in the mood of writing a poem, no ilham.... this sunday it's Happy Mother's Day....gonna stay home this weekend....gonna give mom all my love lah, since there is nobody for me to give my love to....kkekekeke love for sale~~~ anybody needing love, come find me.... hahahahaha May 07 cantik cantik? goin to wear cantik cantik to work tml.... hehehehe going to wear my newly bought long white skirt.... hmmm, feeling better than i am for the past few days.....thanks.... unbelieveable STUPID kindergarten teacher was on air today!!!heard over the radio today....it's on the "are you smarter than the 12 year old kid" programme in mix fm.... this kindergarten teacher is making herself look stupid...
by keep saying that she is only teaching kindy, doesn't mean that she can answer crappy things la....she got to pass her primary and secondary examinations la....adoi
Q : what is the smallest planet in the system?
Kindy stupid answer : Apple
Explanation : in my kindy, i teach my students that the smallest planet is apple....
WTH....if i have children, surely i will NOT send them there....aiseh.....
Q : what is the effect of excessive CO2 to earth?
Kindy stupid answer : i am only teaching kindergarten!!
OMG! even small kids know nowadays!!!! even the radio deejays have to give her hints.... XXXXX warming? and she got it right. Global warming.....
and her answer comes in a tone of global warming???? as like she is not certain of the answer.....
OMG!!! how can we expect someone as stupid as this to teach our kids? aiseh....not to say she don't have the brains, but i guess she does not know how to use them!!!
Teaching kindergarten doesn't mean that you are stupid....you need to be more intelligent, as kids will ask you a lot of questions which they will hold to their brain for a very very long time....kindy is the place whereby young kids are moulded from young la...
don't go and teach kids that apple is the smallest planet in the solar system lah!!!!!
apple is a fruit, for god's sake!!!!
May 04 P.S. I LOVE YOU.....finished reading the book P.S I Love You, written by Cecelia Ahern....tempted to buy the movie, bought it...and watched it...book is better than movie, of course...
i could smile, laugh to myself and even shed a tear when i am reading this book....but when watching the movie, all the feelings gone...perhaps i already know how the storyline goes, but it could be as well, that the movie storyline is abit lari la....
anyhow, anyway, it's a nicely written story and well acted movie.....
touched by the love this husband, Gerry shows for her wife, Holly....touched by how the importance of frens and family when you are alone....
The everlasting love Holly had for Gerry, and his love for her as well....it's nicely written whereby we will not be finding this kinda love in reality check! So irony life could be.....
while reading the book, my mind wandering...wandering far into the world of unrealitiness...bringing me deep and deeper into the world of love...
but end to end, this is a very good book...recommended....
gonna go buy another book of hers..... "where rainbow's met" .....
think i'm gonna compose a poem, been sometime since the last time i written a poem....
wait for my poem, will ya?
p.s : I LOVE YOU.....
my love, my fate.....had went to watched The Iron Man.....1 word to describe = WOW!!! the technology is superb!! i love the movie....had a blast...watched it with cheng, pk, clay, steph and YP...planned to watch 9plus movie, but end up we watch 12.15am movie...know why? Clay said that the seats we have is a bad seat...mana tau, we got to know tad it is like somewhere in middle seating....geez...but nvm, we got to hang around and chat more...kesian YP, slept at starbucks due to too sleepy....lol...
cheng firstly said that this movie is crappy....dun prefer to watch it...but after the movie, the comment we have from her is the same...good movie...jhahahaha
man, the cars in the movie is like to HOT!!!! would do anything to have this car...ahhahhaha
went to club yesterday, MOIS...we got free entrance, as some event is organised there, and we have an invited DJ from KL....he's DJ Goldfish....1 word too = WOW!!!
he's good!!! he is very very very good!!! The songs he played, wow....all is great!he managed to get everybody hot and steamy.....and thanks to the bad ventilation at MOIS, we got steamier.....
everybody's swating teruk....but it was all fun....
had a dance with s new fren, Satish.....an indian guy...hahaha...he's funny, and he's good as well..good dancer i mean.....
taught me some dance moves, and some sexy hot dance.....lol.....
wat a night of experience.....
bought myself a long skirt....cheap, but nice....so gonna wear it to work next week.....hahahahah
gonna go and impress somebody..... :P
oh yah...cheng me and pk went to some temple the other day....and we try our luck in "tilik nasib"......it was me who started 1st...i''ve gotta say that wat this sifu said is quite accurate, until it shakes the nerves out of me....well, sure it'll be a secret for me to keep....lol....
but i kinda got a sense of direction this gonna take me to....doors which has been closed, will be remain closed forever, as i know that thes doors ain't gonna lead me to where i wanna go, and not gonna give me wat i wanna have......
i can't be forever waiting for this door to open, sitting there restlessly.....it's jus like that nite at MOIS...i kept standing near the entry hoping to see u coming in through the entrance....but i can tell that, the moment if i saw u in...i'm gonna face away......
i promise myself that i am not going to repeat this again.....i am not gonna wait for u...as i said...doors closed, will remain closed....
there are still many doors of opportunities waiting for me....and i am going to cherish it....
fate is in my hands...and i am going to detemine my own fate..be it on my work, or personal life....am going to determine it myself....
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