went to PG today wiz mom, bro and sis.....

went to temple....then went to eat penang road laksa and cendol..

waseh....damn nice....

but mom say during her time, it's more delicious....

now, it's not....

wahahaha......but I was never there to experience it the way she had last time...

so, i consider now as delicious la..hhahaha

anyway, everytime when i went to eat food at penang...it sure reminds me of a fren, David,...

you see, david's from Klang...but he came down to penang for work...

and this guy, if you tel ppl tad he's originated from Pg, nobody will even notice you're lying...

u know why?

cus his sense of direction in pg is better than me...

he can bring me go eat in places i don even know how to go...or food that i duno it's nice in pg...

make me paiseh nia, say i'm from pg for 24years, and still need a tour guide in pg...

hehehehehhehe

anyway, i salute David la...he's the best tour guide i've ever known.... :P

 

but he went back to KL loh....

not only I missed him bring me around for food in PG, but I missed having a fren who I can hang out with.....

all the clubbing times...the gila gila times...

ahhahahaha

miss having you here, man.....

 

anyway, back to PG today, when i'm on my way to my aunty's house....

i saw an elderly couple coming down from a bus, and they were trying to cross the road....

and they were so loving....

they hold each others hand and together-gether they cross the road...

even after crossing the road, the hubby never let go of the wife's hand.....

such a loving couple....

it's very hard nowadays to see such loving couples at the road.....

hmmmm...i wonder, when only i can find mine.......

 

it's raining now...been raining for everynite since i duno when...last wek, perhaps...

good weather to sleep with though....

even now, my eyes are getting tired...

wanna go sleep now....

bye...hugs.......

 

 

 

I think I really should FUCKING shut myself out from outside world already....

I'm FUCKING PISSED off....totally pissed off today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Friday's nite mood totally blewn away........................

Of wanting to initally meet up old frens....then suddenly.............

I don wanna talk bout it....

 

Some say I'd changed....and yes, I admit I'd changed...but do you guys will ever think, why do I changed???? Why Do i changed from someone who's cheerful, someone's who's soft, someone's who's nice....someone's who's alwiz happy, someone who's outgoing, into someone who you guys don't recognise???SOmeone who is alwiz staying home...someone who is alwiz declining to go out hanging around sommore??????

 

Why???? Do you guys ever think of why???? I'm thinking of why too.....

What kinda dissapointment I have face???  What kinda dissapointment that makes me wanna shut myself out from outside world????

I do admit I'm no longer the nice girl you guys ever known....I'm no longer the patient girl you guys ever known....

 

I believe that I used to be a girl that alwiz say OK...no problem....and somehow this has got me into a situation where everyone won;t ever think of my feels....

you be late? Ok, no prob... You break a promise?? Ok no prob....

You raise your voice to me??? No prob.... you make me sad, you make me cry??? No prob either....

I'll be fine the next day....or maybe couple hours later....

 

But now, everything's won;t be ok for me....

I will be harsh...no offence....I won't treat everybody nice anymore....

I'm protecting myself from within....is it by being introvert makes me feel protected?????

 

Up to now, I'm still angered by the stupid moron....a single view or even by hearing his name makes my blood gushing...makes me feels like wanna punch him in his face...

 

Call me childish, call me stubborn....But I WILL NEVER FORGIVE SUCH A MORONIC PERSON EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

got nth to do today.....watch a dvd with my bro today....

I got a day off from office, as we have replacement holiday for the Prophet's bday....so i get to laze around.....

well, this movie i watch b4 ade..but it's a nice movie, make me touched everytime....touched = cry...hahahahaahha

anyway, the title of this movie is "A walk to remember"

It's played by Mandy Moore and Shane West....

It's about the life of a guy who is changed when he met this girl.....

This guy(carried by Shane) is the popular guy at his school. And not to mentioned, quite notorious....he mixes with a bunch of girls and guys who are into hip hop, bling bling....and well, they are the popular group at sch....everyone looks upon them....they sit at the popular table at sch....they look hip..they look great.......

and one day, Shane got into detention for wat they did, erm..i lazy to tell the whole thing....

wat he get for the detention is....to join a school's drama play, to give tutoring on Saturdays to younger children, and another is to do janitor work after sch.....

well, for all  these detentions, this girl(played by Mandy) is a very soft spoken girl, was not popular at sch....the reverand's daughter at their homeplace....and the kinda girl who wears the same sweater since young...you can imagine how she loks like...not ugly, but not hip.....gentle, soft, not sexy.....so, this popular group alwiz makes fun of her.....

till, Shane gets into these detention, as Mandy are the volunteers for all these to be considered charity work......

Slowly, shane got to know mandy more, and slowly he falls in love with her...

when his popular gang got to know bout this, they make fun of him and Mandy as well....thus, Shane begin to mix them less.....

then, one day, Shane got to know from Mandy that she's sick....of leuchemia....

and the rest of the story is about how he tries to fulfill her wish list, and how he's with her through her sick times.....

and her 1st wish in her list is to get married in the same church her parents get married, and yes, Shane fulfils her wish also....

both of them love each other so much, they are happily married.....

a summer passed, and Mandy passed away......

As for Shane, he changed into a person who has high hopes and go for his own wish list as well. He ended up joining a medical school, of which he never thought he could enter....and 4 years after Mandy's death, her presence still lingers with Shane....

 

A quotation in this movie...being said by Mandy to Shane, and it's being said when they're getting married....

 

"Love is kind and patient.....

It's never jealous.....

Love is.......erk....forget wat the line is already....

ahhahahaha

 

Well, for me, love is pure....love is beautiful....

to get love, we must love ourselves.....

to give and take is wat i belief......

to find love, let love comes to us by itself....

that's when we can find true love..................

 

P.S : seeing you everyday doesn't make me miss you less....it makes me miss you more the minute I din see you......

Mandy Moore and Shane West in Warner Bros. Pictures' inspirational coming-of-age love story, "A Walk to Remember."
Shane West in Warner Bros. Pictures' inspirational coming-of-age love story, "A Walk to Remember," also starring Mandy Moore.
Mandy Moore in Warner Bros. Pictures' inspirational coming-of-age love story, "A Walk to Remember," also starring Shane West.
(L-R) Al Thompson, Paz Del La Huerta, Clayne Crawford, Shane West, Jonathan Parks Jordan and Lauren German in Warner Bros. Pictures' inspirational coming-of-age love story, "A Walk to Remember," also starring Mandy Moore.

Mandy Moore and Shane West in Warner Bros. Pictures' inspirational coming-of-age love story, "A Walk to Remember."

 

i browse through some fren's pictures today in friendster....university frens....some makes me snicker and smile...

brings all those sweet and funny memories....how I miss those days...

but some pics do bring bad memories though......HOw irony my feel is right now.....

it's like, I'm missing every bit of the moment I was when I'm in uni.......I;m missing everybody....I'm missing everything.....

But, in the same time, I feel like i'm doubting it....Can I face them like how i did last time????

Sometimes, i do feel like try to forgive and forget....as I really miss both of them....miss the times we shared together....

But, the thought of just how I feel deep inside, jus make me bypass my earlier hope. I can't manage to forget...eventhough I have forgive...I can't manage to let everything go, and face them like practically nothing has happened....

Call me sensitive...or selfish...but I really can't...maybe someday I will be able to really face them again, but maybe...nobody knows....

Maybe when the time comes...I can....

For now, I'm feeling like I'm drifting away from everybody......and into the world of 'auntiness'....hahahaahha

begin to like to stay home alot....and giving a lot of excuses when frens inviting me out.....

I duno wat happening to me, maybe I've lost the sense of fun in myself....Maybe I'm jus tired of mixing with the wrong kinda ppl, who eventually ended up hurting me up.......

Maybe I'm jus protecting myself up against I duno wat.....

To be honest, I duno why I'm behaving like this...is it I'm stepping into the world of 'introverts'?????

Am I having self-depression???? But I'm stil as cheerful as I can be......I can't be having depression......No, I can't be.....

I think I need somebody to help protect me up....someone i can trust....someone I can have my faith in...

someone I can lean on....someone's shoulder who is big and tough enough to have my head to lean on.....

erm...to cut short....I wan somebody to take care of me la..

ahahahahahhaahhahahaha

ok.....frens...find me somebody I can snuggle in, find me somebody I can hug....find me somebody to hold hands with......

longing for the feel of being loved....

PK, Cheng...this is your AR....haahahahahah

 

aside to this, I;ve been thinking of going to vacation....going to somewhere like beaches......

Been to redang....enjoyed it so much.....but I'm trying to keep only my memories on how beautiful Redang is....And I'm going to forget the fake feeling I have during this vacation......

hmmm..back to the topic....Maybe go for tioman...I heard from a fren of mine...tioman is nice.....hmmm.....

Anyone up for tioman????? Think I'm going to organise one.....yeh yeh.....heheheheheheh

 

I went to library today, with bro and sis.....sis wanna borrow some books....so, i take the opportunity to go and look for some novels...or anything that might get my attention...i was in the leadership grooming section....but guess wat kinda book i saw????

hahahahaha

It's "how to make anyone fall in love with you".......i think this book lands in the wrong place la...this book should be in the....erm...love section i guess??????hahahahahaah

But, guess wat???? this is the book which i;ve ended borrowing home..

ahahahahahahahahh

gonna read it up and let u guys know how good this book is........

see if I can make anyone fall for me......well, i kinda need it as well, til now also single...geez....ahhahahahahah

 

ok la...going to end now...gonna go read this book up.....til then..... HUGS.................

 

 

 

 

 

lately, been crazy bout 1 korean drama - Princess Hours(Goong)....love the song...love the characters...love the actor, especially...wuahahaha.....but most of all, i love the story line....

well, it really blends well into our life....imagine meeting somebody who we totally duno, and we have to really live with him/her, and opppssss.....forgot to say, Married actually....though real life, there shouldn't be any case like this, i mean like nowadays, we'd marry to who we wants to marry.....small possiblility of those arranged marriage happens though......

wat really blends into our life, is tad how he fall for her in time....it's like this...we'll start off meeting frens...and won't have any feels for each other....then with time, and slowly, feelings start to develop.....and when feels starts to develop, if it turns out both party likes each other, then end of story....all thing went fine....both of them lived happily ever after......

But, if it's one sided, means like another party don;t have any feels for the another, then a lot of crying and hurting will come up.....

geez..love's like tad... love's blind.....there's no reason for love....

once u fall, u fall....

 

 

abandoned this blog for quite some time ade....frenster's blog getting sien...

plus, pk says msn blog more happening...hmmm......haha....so, here I am...adding live to this blog again.....

well....those who din read my frenster's blog all these while...well, i duno how to summarize all into one post a day...haha..

so, i guess, we'll have to slowly catch up la.....

 

hmmmm...read newspaper today, and I came across an article- HOOKED ON HOOKAH

well, this is practically bout the thing called "shisha"...  Cheng intro this to me when I was wiz her in KL, visiting old frenz....

was with kheng, her bf, and cheng...we run out of mind of wat to do one night in KL...so, Cheng came out wiz an idea of going for "shisha"....

3 of us then went, huh??? wat is tad...and Cheng told us it's like pipe smoking...got a lot of flavours.....but to me, the thought of having to smoke something, it's no difference with smoking....no matter wat we smoke...it's stil smoke...ahahahah......

And me, kheng and bf don't like the idea of Shisha....so, we went to other place.....

 

Then, today, when I saw this article, it caught my attention....and there, I read it whole....

Well, I can tell a lil bout Shisha....

well, some says shisha was originated in Turkey over 500years ago, but some claim it from either Syria or India.....And it says shisha refers to flavoured tobacco....hmmm...and to smoke a shisha, we use a thing called hookah....the name hookah makes me think of something spooky, like some kinf of black magic's term...but haha...it's not...it's actually like a smoking pipe...looks like wat Alladdin's world have in the cartoon...hahaha......well, below is a picture showing a lady smoking using hookah......

 

Some says smoking shisha is not bad for health, as the tobacco is soked in fruits shavings such as apples, grapes, strawberries....and some says it's safer than cigarettes, as the smoke is filtered through water and the flavour-infused tobacco is also mixed with honey which has many healthy properties....BUT, according to medical experts, they say it's otherwise....which I agree as well....

Quoted from Star- "Kuala Lumpur health department deputy head Dr....... said Shisha was tobacco mixed with molasses(wat is this???) and fruit flavours  and Tobacco products in any form contacined nicotine. "

Well, all of us know right, tobacco is carcinogenic-means cancerous...and well, it's toxic...There's what we know, the more the person smokes, the more he is prone to get lung cancer.....

and, shisha smoking can be addictive too, cus shisha smoking is smoking tobacco too....

And this is where I agree most....As I said earlier, when smoking using the hookah, the smoke is filtered through water, right???? And here's  another quote from Star - " The water filter is a gimmick. Most of the toxic chemicals and nicotine are NOT WATER SOLUBLE. Hence, it passed though the filter and inhaled by the smoker, although other irritant subtances, which are water-soluble, will get filtered". Well, I studied Chemistry, thus I know well there are a lot of chemicals which are not water soluble...Nicotine, for sure is not water soluble.....

then, the water which the function is to filter the smoke, is useless....this is where it's defeats the purpose...and not everyone knows bout this.....and they are enjoying this shisha smoking, as they think it's harmless.....

Quote from Star - Reuters reported last week that the World Health Organisation(WHO) had announced that a single session of smoking Shisha yields a nicotine intake equivalent to more than 1 pack of cigarettes.

HMMMMMMMMM.........................

Well, this article really sparks some thought here, and it surely will wake a lot of ppl up!!!!!!

So, stil going for Shisha????? Nah~~~~~~

 

Hmm....weather's going dark....sleepy pulak....gonna go nap....

LOVE CALVIN & HOBBES....AHAHHAHAHAH