had a haircut today..... had my hair washed and massaged....well, it makes my head loose a lil....
if not, headache continues....i will be dead!
:P

a different type of perception.....altered by one of my fren...hahahahah
damn funny....

1st - original ones...
- Kiss her in the pouring rain


The altered one......
When you break her heart - [ break break la so wat tomorrow will shine again ]
When she misses you - [ miss ma get married fast stay under one roof lo]
When she says its over - [ the forest so big can find other trees ma ]
When she re-posts this bulletin - [ sometimes computer respond slow mistakenly double post (happens all the time) ]
When she walks away from you mad - [ let her go la can find other]
When she stare's at your mouth - [ your mouth dirty la  ]
When she pushes you or hit's you - [ you step on people toe people sure push you wan ma ]
When she starts cursing at you - [ curse her back and curse her ancestor also ]
When she ignores you - [ tell her to go and fuck herself(go find other)]
When she pulls away - [ give her a sidekick ]
When you see her at her worst - [ tell her to see mirror don't go on the street and frightened people ]
When you see her start crying - [kindly ask her do you wan to die also if yes help to push her down 20th floor ]
When you see her walking - [ take a car and mow her down ]
When she's scared - [ tell her to go and fuck herself la so big ade scared wat]
When she lays her head on your shoulder - [ move awaw and let her fall]
When she steals your favorite hat - [ screw her kau kau and tell her don't mess with your things]
When she teases you - [ give her a good slap on her face  ]
When she doesn't answer for a long time - [ ask is she deaf or not]
When she looks at you with doubt - [ tell her see wat ? beh song ar?]
When she says that she likes you - [ go for a round of friendly match first don't talk so much ]
When she grabs at your hands - [ take her hand and swing it around ]
When she bumps into you - [ sidekick her ]
When she tells you a secret - [ make it a secret don't "tell" anyone verbally but e-mail it to all her friends ]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [ ask her again see wat? beh song ar?]
-DON'T let her have the last word(this is comething hard women likes to have the last word which is usually "FINE"

i realize that for my own need, i have put someone i dear in a difficult situation..... though i have already know what situation all of us in, yet, i am wanting to have a clear answer for my own protection.....
i realize that time will tell.... and will not make anymore hard and difficult situation for that someone already....
it hurts me a little for me to see someone i dear is struggling and gasping for air....

just hope that i will really receive something sweet from you on my birthday.....and i will always stand by you.....

hints hints hints...i hate hints.....
hints are all dangerous....it could be wrongly interpreted as it depends on each person....
should i have interpreted the hints wrongly, i will be walking towards a wrong path.....and i will be walking it alone.....
i do not want to walk alone....i do not want to be in a road that i will be clapping my own hands, syok sendiri....wrongly interpreting the hints i happily thought is correct.....
am I in a one way road, i have to know.....
am not sure if i am smart enough to guess or feel it correctly, give me a definite hint....
if i am the smart one who u need to stand by you, give me something sweet on my birthday.....
be it sweets, chocolates, or even rock sugar....it will do.....

if there is none, i should know how to computate it myself, and shall choose another road to walk.......
shall i say, i have never ever felt such a strong urge to be with someone.....but i shall let go if we are not meant to be.....

just realise how lovely the lyrics of this song is....how i wish this is exactly the one he's had on his mind, as this is what is exactly i had in mine....song's from David Archuleta - CRUSH

"I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever"